Breathing Space & More...

Milestones are interesting.   They are a marker in time.   A stopping point.   A time for evaluation & reflection. 40 years on this Earth.   It seems like a lot of time & yet… often it feels like those forty years just gave me a start on the path.   They were my learning and growing years.  My trying on and figuring out years.   Lots of contemplation & frustration.   Lots of wonder & growth, but lots of inner struggle over who I am and how I want to live.   Growing older can be a tough road for some.  For me, it has been a journey to find & stay true to my inner truth, my inner core.  40 years of experiences that have given me a lot of perspective & understanding into my place, my gifts, my beliefs.  I feel like this milestone has given me permission to move forward with less angst and more trust.  Less questioning and more knowing....

Everyday I am thinking about letting go.  My days are spent in sessions with clients, or reading about decluttering tips, or writing blog posts, all in an effort to support clients as they let go of clutter and unwanted habits.  Letting go is something that I have made into my life's work, but never is it more "in my face" than when I sit with my grandma at the nursing home.  My grandma has Dementia/Alzheimers.  I don't even know what or which or why or how, but I do know that it seems we have lost her to the disease and letting go & holding on are happening all at once. As I sit and watch her sleep, I can stroke her hand and feel the many memories of playing Go to the Dump or Crazy Eight on my days off of Kindergarten, getting a home perm in her kitchen in elementary school, and painting my nails at her kitchen nook in H.S.  I remember learning how to snap a dish towel with my cousins as we cleaned up from holiday gatherings & singing and dancing...